Hollowed

My hands grasp for an anchor
I find myself floating away
Fading into another misadventure
While I do my best to remain
I am calm
I lay it all out
The light and dark illuminated
By the expression of my truth

I am nothing but a woman
Walking the world with a hollow space
My heart has gone
Shattered and scattered to the wind
I give pieces of it freely
No use to me now
Ornamental and vacant
While my chest rattles in vain

My eyes have seen much
Too much perhaps
Or maybe not enough
My bones ache for new terrain
A new touch
Relief from this constant pain
That radiates and bruises

I will always feel this
The longing and the what if
Sorrow for what was
Hoping for what could have
I remain myself
I hold on to the bits that I believe to be good
I let the rest go
Scattered to the four winds
My heart, and my pain

Home Again

You go back to that place
That you swore you'd never go back to
A magnet clutched in your chest
Leading you back to being seen
In the dark recesses
Where you belong

It's quiet there
Nobody to fill your space with noise
Just breathing and cracking bones
Tongues and teeth
Hands wishing to hold onto something so fleeting
The clarity of home
The release of passion

It is not for these reasons that you shouldn't have come
But because you cannot leave
Limbs entangled by invisible roots
You got out once before
But this time
This time you don't want to return
There is too much sky unseen
Too many pages to fill
And too much road to get lost on

To be here
Ensnared by the familiar
Can you go home again?

The Dance

I would return to you

Over and over again

Like a wave kissing the shore

Then slowly retreating into itself

To regroup

And then come back for more

The jagged edges

Softened by the repeated touch

Of something that cannot stay away