I still look for your car sometimes
I know it's stupid, I know you're so far
I wake up in the night and reach for you
and sometimes in that moment between awake and asleep
where you're here in my dreams
I can smell you.
Feel the bed shift beneath the weight of you
I fight that moment with all of me,
willing myself to stay asleep
Because then maybe I wasn't only dreaming.
Sometimes I dream of a journey. A 2000 mile hike.
I wake up with sore feet
Awakening just as the door opens- a cruel joke.
We both have our problems, hurdles to overcome.
I know that I act crazy and I make things too hard sometimes
But I also know I'm right in feeling how I feel
You may still feel guilt, but the time for that is long gone.
I know there is something here. I feel it and I see it.
Try as I might, I can't get past it- instead, I'll just own it.
My love, for you is unrelenting, it is mine to feel and to give.
That is all I can do.
As long as I live.